I was once told a story about prisoners. The prisoners were to be executed by their captors and before they were killed they were given two options. Die by the guns of the soldiers in execution or walk and face what is behind the fortress gates. All the soldiers chose death by the gun. Eventually even the soldiers were curious and asked the general what is it that lurks behind those gates that these prisoners fear? The general answered “nothing the door is the way to their freedom.”

The story was told to me to make me understand how powerful fear is. How the world is controlled by fear, like, if you aren’t on MXy’s SWEET16 then you aren’t sexy enough (lol) or if you don’t wear a certain clothes you aren’t cool if you don’t show up for this party then you miss out (on what?) If you don’t finish high school with good grades then you will never make it anywhere. That last one took me years to take out of my mind it was a fear tactic that was used on me but also messed my confidence for a second. Why? I didn’t have good grades in High school. I just went through high school, high (hey, they call it high school lol)

 In fear Ciji talks about something that was a revolving conversation for me this whole week and reading that part the conversation has come again. Birth, the fear of giving birth. How many of us who don’t have children have gone through it? I have a beautiful friend who just told me what she went through and right now another equally beautiful person just went through the same thing.

 The fear isn’t necessarily about what the child will become, girl, boy, criminal, president; the fear is of the perception of society around, mom, dad, boyfriend, girl-friends and essentially her own beliefs. Like the one where you have to be married before you bare a child.

 My friend conquered those fears though, I smiled very loud when I got the text message on my phone. She made the decision to become a new mother and eventually when time comes Ciji will be in the same space that many women have gone through and from how she speaks in Love Story Ciji will make a wonderfull baby’s mother and if you play your cards right you can be the one who creates the sequel to her love story. EZ

INTRODUCE My name is Ciji Michelle, I am a model and a magazine editor/ journalist. I am currently working on the launch of my very own Magazine entitled A-Game.
 

SEXY I think when someone calls you sexy it’s a compliment that embodies all compliments. In order to be sexy you must possess, beauty, intelligence, class and a swagger. I always knew that I had potential to be sexy, but I hadn’t really embraced it and was a little reluctant on doing so. I think as I grew up I realized that being sexy wasn’t a bad thing and I became comfortable with my sex appeal. I ultimately realized I was sexy when I kept hearing it from different people and as I got older and got to know my body and style.. I think it’s a beautiful thing. I’m one of the writers of a column in Enfluenz Magazine, called “SEXYOLOGY”…

 
NUMBER 1 I should be number one because thats where I always strive to be. I’m not just a model, I am an educated business woman that sees that there is more to this than looks. Its crucial for models to educate themselves on the industry that they are entering into. I speak to girls who are just starting out and I try to help them, not hurt them. I haven’t seen the other girls on the Sweet 16 roster but I’m sure their all beautiful. So whether I’m placed at #1 or not, that doesn’t shift the thoughts in my mind that that’s where I belong for many reasons. I think it’s up to others to feel me or not.
 

Career As far as the modeling, Yes I’m happy. I got into this by accident.. It wasn’t something that I dreamed of doing. So when I was exposed to it, it started off as and still remains fun to me. So to get the recognition and love that I’ve been getting is crazy and very unexpected, but very much appreciated. Now in reference to my everyday career, No I’m not happy as of yet. I have so much more to learn and accomplish, but in a few years ask me that same question. If I stick with it I’m sure I’ll be a top notch web developer and successful magazine CEO. My ultimate dream is to create my own stiletto line as well.
 

MOTIVATION I love what I’m seeing now, You know with the election. I love the fact that history is being made by a strong willed stand-up family. The Obama’s inspire me to be persistent. I love what’s going on and I’m very proud of them. I also love success, that motivates me. I absolutely am a fan of seeing people succeed. I love music and fashion and last but not least the reasons of why I dream the way I do are my family and GOD. With out them I would be nowhere. For that and for them I am thankful. 

HATE Hate is so harsh, even though I say it in a general or in a playful way I don’t think I’ve ever said it and meant it. I can say I dislike judgmental people, excuses and rowdy people… But what I absolutely HATE, ummm I would have to say maybe insects and rodents. That might be it… lol

Fear One of my biggest fears is child birth, I don’t have children so I can’t say I overcame that fear, but at one point I was so afraid that I thought that I would never want to have children. I do look forward to it someday, so maybe thats my first step to overcoming it.

GROWING PAINS I struggled with understanding the industry. There a lot of no-name big shots. What I mean by that is, There are so many people that tell you what they can do for your career. They try and fool you into believing they are bigger and more powerful than they are. You know the self proclaimed boss man. I just learned how to do my research without burning my bridges or compromising my morals.

FORE FATHER My mother, she is a conquerer. She makes it work no matter how little she has to work with. And her strength is crazy. I just really look up to her as a woman and as a person. She makes me want to be a better woman.

 
LIFE I am a wet behind the ears web developer. I also write for 3 magazines as well as own my own set to launch this new years.

Spirituality I work on myself. I do the things that make me happy. I work out a lot and that keeps me happy with myself.

LOVE STORY I love the idea of love… I’ve experienced true love. My personal love story is a special one to me. Even during heart break I still looked at the idea of love as something beautiful. The person who has my heart is someone who knows me inside and out. Better than any other man. We just work whether we are friends or lovers.. He is a just a really dear individual. Nothing but respect for him… Now, if I start talking about how strong my love for my family is, then we might be here all day.lol Its a crazy love, but it’s definitely nothing like it when your niece or nephews run into your arms and hug you, when your parents smile because they haven’t seen you in a while, when you and your siblings get together and act like kids again.. Man I just love LOVE… its what I live for.

THANK YOU I just want to say thanks to all my family and friends for all the backing the love and support. Oh and for anyone who supports the OBAMA 08′ movement…

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